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From Memory
04:28
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I remember when
‘Cause I remember everything
until I forget
And then when I do,
I up and erase the days
Sunk to the floor
I’d been thinking of my brothers
About something
I cannot recall
So I close my eyes and count to ten
Stick with me now
I’m driving through the night
When I had a car
I had it all
In these turning trees,
I thought I heard you calling out
Still in the air
I’d been thinking of my mother
About something
I cannot
It’s all I’ve got
It holds me down
and won’t let up
So I close my eyes and count to ten
Remembering once what you had said:
Well you held me once when I was there
An outstretched hand is all I am
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2. |
Offering
03:48
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When I couldn’t sleep that night,
should’ve known right then that I wasn’t alright.
I was shivering up in the sheets,
thinking death.
Swatting flies away from the meat,
throwing rocks at feral dogs in the street.
Someone told me that somebody died
from a snake bite here last year.
Burning up into the greying sky,
thinking: who might build one when I die?
It was all I could do.
If you asked me there
in the muggy air
Are you gonna be alright man?
I’d have laughed
‘cause it’s all I could do.
When I lost myself back there,
well I couldn’t breathe for the smoke in the air
coming off the plastic and trash,
burning high.
Getting dizzy sick in the street,
and you stopped up the way just ahead of me.
I was staring down at my feet,
at an offering of flowers
burning up into the greying sky,
thinking: who might build one when I die?
It was all I could do.
If you asked me there
in the muggy air
Are you gonna be alright man?
I’d have laughed
‘cause it’s all I could do.
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3. |
Emerald Green
02:48
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Backyard rink
taught us how to skate.
Fog lights so we could stay out late.
Snow plowed paths
just for the dogs—
fetching pucks and running to the woods.
Before the sun,
breathing into boots.
Listening to ZLX with you.
Quizzing me—who does this one?
I only ever got a couple wrong.
I remember hearing I’d be an older brother soon.
And we were moving
but I could choose the
color of my room.
I used to wait up all night long,
waiting to hear you turn the TV off.
And I thought for a second I killed Ev when I split his head.
So I ran screaming,
plus I thought I might’ve ruined the rug.
And when I buried my first dog,
our old neighbor helped me
lower him into the ground.
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4. |
I Knew, I Know
03:18
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Backing down the driveway
God, it’s early.
Fuck, it’s freezing.
The wind is lapping at the glass,
I’m cold,
I’m young.
I call you on my way
and ask if you’d like coffee.
I hear you sigh,
I see my breath
inside the car.
Right hand turn,
a little ice—
spinning under streetlights—
Love, if you could see me now,
like this,
I wonder if—
Begging me to slow down—
Why would I forgive you?
And why would you forgive me?
I wanted to forgive you.
Crawling all the hills
and taking all the turns to your house—
I’m crunching over snow, you know
my two-door was never meant to.
And nine years later
these roads stand to make me nauseous.
They look alike and make me think
of death and doing everything too long.
Right hand turn,
a little ice—
spinning under streetlights—
Love, if you could see me
now, like this,
I wonder if—
Begging me to slow down—
Why would I forgive you?
And why would you forgive me?
I wanted to forgive you.
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5. |
Comfortable
04:00
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I know I’ve been wrong before,
but sometimes I’m alright.
Turning fall surrounds—
that empty sound.
It’s in the air, hollowed out.
But I wouldn’t
dare just get comfortable.
Shake me alive, and get out.
Love, I’ve been here before—
digging up more of mine.
Bending with the light.
The morning
I watch it all streaming by.
Callous in the cold.
I’m growing old
but thinking I’ll sleep it off.
But I wouldn’t
dare just get comfortable.
Shake me alive and get out.
Love, I’ve been here before—
digging up more of myself.
Love, don’t get comfortable.
Shake me alive and get out.
Love, I’ve been here before—
digging up more of mine.
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Above, in the Birches
03:47
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I’m a killer myself,
but I could use the help.
‘Cause hell would lock us out
just for loving ourselves.
I’m the weight of the world.
I’m whatever you see first.
I’m the blue of the Earth.
Up above, in the birches,
I thought I saw God.
I’m not the watering pail.
I’m the rain that turns to hail
and hurts like hell.
I’m not the deer on the ice.
I’m the second you think twice
and worry you might.
At the sink, in the kitchen,
I stop the water to hear
that crimson cardinal—
eyes grown wide with fear.
And I know its name,
but I’m scared to say—
when I feel what I felt,
I just turn it away.
But quiet to myself,
I start to pray.
At the sink, in the kitchen,
I stop the water to hear
that crimson cardinal—
eyes grown wide with fear.
And I know its name,
but I’m scared to say—
when I feel what I felt,
I just turn it away.
When I see what I saw,
I turn my head away.
But I owe it to myself, I.
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7. |
Canton
02:18
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You’re cutting up watermelon
with the big knife I’m not supposed to touch.
And later on, we’re tying shoes.
I’m feeling pretty good about it now.
Someday.
I don’t know.
It’s just like you said:
Do what you can while you can.
Swimming laps, I’m keeping up.
But I can’t hold my breath as long as you yet.
And drying off on the porch,
watching Price is Right and eating snacks.
Grandma makes tomato sauce.
My mum comes to pick me up.
I show her I can tie my shoes.
She says Whoa baby, look at you!
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